Friday, January 22, 2010

laughing, yelling, and running

Last night my sister Mary K came over with her kids. We watched a video that she made for my parents for Christmas this past year. She did an amazing job. It’s a video, set to some great songs, of pictures she took throughout the year. These pictures are off all of the grandchildren (with some the ‘adults’ in there as well). It’s in chronological order, so in the middle of the video, when she gets to July, there is a segment for Andrew. It shows a few of the NILMDTS pictures. It’s beautiful. But every time I watch it, I think about all he will be missing out on. I’m glad she put it in there; he was a huge part of this past year and of our family. But it’s sad. I see all of the grandchildren growing together and loving each other. The way they play and have so many good times with each other. And I think about how Andrew will miss it all. Some say he’ll still be there, a part of those family moments. I know he will be, but not in the way I want. I want him to be growing with them, laughing, yelling, and running.   He’s not there, and I still don’t understand why.


  1. He's there. He's the smile that you see on Katelyn when no one else is in the room. And he is the breeze you feel when no other leaves are shaking. He is the angel that wakes you from a bad dream and the angel that allows you to open the curtains to see the next day. He's there. Don't you worry about that my friend.

  2. At least our boys can hold hands and laugh together... skipping and playing dump trucks. Skinned knee's and bumps on heads..... Kerry I miss him so much. I know this feeling you have. When life is moving on and our sons are not there. The phsyical touch is gone. I do hope all is good with you and your family.....I've been thinking of you and your decision to find out the sex of your new growing baby inside I still wonder if you will find out...... Brandy


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