Friday, June 18, 2010

adjusting well

I have to say that having Joseph has come with it's own set of emotions.  I am so absolutely in love with him.  I hate putting him down.  I could sit and look at his fingers, toes, little nose, and facial expressions all day long.  I look at him and the thought crosses my mind, what if something were to happen to him.  Then I think, last time something did happen.  Something happened to my other son and he died.  I feel all of the emotions a mother feels while holding her newborn, and its all that much more apparent to me what I have missed.  Having Joseph has brought more love into our lives, but has not taken away any of the pain of loosing Andrew. 

On a different note, Katelyn has adjusted well.  She loves her little brother and gets very concerned when he is fussy.

Joseph seems to be adjusting as well.  He slept through Katelyn's "parade" the other night, which consist of drums and singing the ABC's as loud as possible.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Joseph James is here!

I obviously haven't written in a couple of weeks.  Last week they pushed the date up and we went into the hospital on Thursday evening. 
Joseph James
Born Friday, June 4th, at 12:29 pm. 
7 lbs 3 ounces, 20 inches long. 

He's beautiful, and I find it difficult to put him down.  He is named after both of our maternal grandfathers.  It was a very emotional experience, I think much more than the typical delivery.  It was such a relief to put this stressful pregnancy behind us and finally hold Joseph in our arms.  As much as I tried to keep the deliveries seperate, it was natural to think of Andrew.  With both boys, I went in at 36 weeks and delivered at 36.1.  Andrew was actually longer at 21 inches, but weighed less at 6 lbs, 11 ounces (I think he lost weight at the end).  All 3 kids have the same mouth.  It's a lot to process.  The freshness of the new love for a newborn made us realize, again, how much we missed.  Then you throw in the hormones, and goodness, I'm still a bundle of a mess! 

More to come later, I have to get back to holding my baby.

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