Monday, January 11, 2010

different this time

This pregancy is very different than my first two.  I am scared, nervous, and very cautiously excited.  I go back and forth about growing attached to the baby.

Sometimes I think I don't want to find out the sex.  I try not to get excited.  I don't want to grow attached, risk going through the same level of heartache. 

Other times I want to get attached as possible.  I think about getting a 3d sonogram and recording  it.  I would love to have that of Andrew.  I know Andrew was alive and well.  I felt him all of the time.  I would love to have that sonogram video so that others can see him alive as well.

All I do know is that pregnancy feel very different that the other two.

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