Saturday, October 3, 2009

My hopes with this Blog…

When I lost my son Andrew on July 2, 2009, I was thrown into a world of emotions very few people in my life could understand. It was, and still is, a horrible experience. Since then I have found great comfort in reading others e-mails, blogs, and books about this same experience. It gives me hope to see where others are in the healing process, and brings me comfort to know that I am not alone. I have several hopes with this blog. I hope it will bring comfort to others going through this same experience, give their family and friends some insight, and bring me some comfort too.

I’m starting this blog 3 months after loosing Andrew. I’m sure in my healing process I’ll revisit some of what happened during those first 3 months when the emotions were so fresh. As I get on my feet again, I want to do all I can to keep Andrew a part of our lives. I think about him all of the time…he is a huge part of who I am today.

I miss my son. It’s as simple and as complicated as that.


  1. WOW... my heart is heavy reading this. I feel so many emotions. I am sad for our family, that we will not be happy to watch Andrew grow up as a Lederman surrounded by the love of you, Adam & Katelyn. I am so brokenhearted for you, Kerry! I am sincere when I say that I wish it had happened to me instead just so I can take this pain from you. 'Cause that's what we want to do for the people we love so much.

    With all this sadness I am also so very proud of you, Bear. The way you mother Andrew while he is waiting for you on God's lap. I wonder if God has told Andrew about the time we were all in church & you did, well, you know what you did! And our entire family laughed so hard we had to leave church.

    I am happy to know that you have found a way to bring you some comfort. Andrew has so many people that love him & pray to him everyday. I like to tell Andrew stories of his mom, dad & sis. As you our hearts forever!

    I'm so proud of you Bear for pushing forward & at the same time, making sure that the world knows about your son that you love so very much.

    I must go now & grab a tissue box~


  2. oops...meant to say, "will not be ABLE to watch Andrew..." Not sure why I typed "happy"??

  3. Bear, I am so proud of you for creating this blog and sharing your emotional journey with so many. I am excited that you have decided to include IRL people such as myself! Seriously, it has been really tough for me to see you in so much pain and I feel so helpless. Just know that you are so loved and I will always hold a very special place in my heart for my precious nephew. It means the world to me that I had a chance to hold Andrew in my arms. (((HUGS))) from your fav sis, AM;-)


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