Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Some days are just hard. I love reading blogs of other mothers who understand. Understand that there is no getting over such an experience. I often wonder if others, who have not experienced this pain, wonder when I will be able to move on. Stop dwelling on what happened and refocus. I don't know when that time will come, but it sure hasn't come yet. The other night as I layed in bed one small tear rolled down my cheek. I didn't even know it was there, right on the surface. I feel like that's my life these days. At any minute I could let the tears flow. They are so close to the surface. But I try not to during the day. I try to stay busy. Until I go to bed. That's when I lay and think about Andrew the most. I think about Andrew and how how different my life should be these days. I really really miss my little guy.